Happy Halloween from Tejas. Everyone enjoy today, but please be careful out there. There are crazies and drunk drivers. Learn from my accident the other day. Don't drink and drive and don't let your friends nor enemies either. Love you all send me pix of you in your costumes and the little ones too. Miss you all.
Off to Tejas to see Jess at 1100hrs you know where to find my flight info if you need it in case of emergency........Please everyone have a safe holiday. Love you all I'll send pix. Kisses and Hugs.
Working Med 24 for 24hrs from 8am-8am.........then off to good ol' Tejas. Someone please check in on my baby......he means the world to me. He is my heart so make sure he is well feed, watered and well loved on.....btw I set out plenty of treats for him, just don't give him too many they may make him sick. Thank you. You know where everything is....if you need anything call me. Love you gals.
check this vid out this is some real funny stuff.....gross but funny. Thank you Nita for sending this to me ages ago....it still make me laugh today...btw girls be careful in NYC w/o me. Take lots of pix.
Another paper down and homework yet still to go. I haven't even packed for Houston Texas yet. Lord I got to get a move on it.
TaMmY: Darling please keep your chin up this too shall pass. Always smile it looks good on you. I'll keep the vids coming as long as even if it is for nothing more than a mere moment they make you smile. *wink wink* I'm sending you good thought your way.
OMG you wouldn't believe me if I told you. I got home at 930am or so this morning and was so exhausted I didn't even get a shower. I just crawled in the bed and fell fast asleep with Bastien in my arms.....I didn't wake up until 1900hrs.....WoW I was more tired than I thought I was. However, I did in deed get a lot done today. I wrote my paper and cleaned the house then went to dinner with a buddy. I am glad I slept that long, but boy do I feel so bad for wasting a whole day away in the bed. Bastien was thankful though. He hasn't spent quality time with his mommy in weeks now. I need to make more time for him. We shall dub it mommy n' me time.....LOL.
Btw Jenny thank you o very much you are such a life saver. I can't wait to have you as my new roomie. Your the bomb diggady dot com LMAO. Now that was a blast from our past wasn't it. LOL. WeStSiDe LOL omgoodness I think I am gonna pee myself. Class of good ol' 98. Go Patriots.
Working Med 24 for 24hrs from 8am-8am......why did I say yes to all of those days last week? They seemed like such a grand idea until Friday night. Whew. I just need a day of real rest. I know I took one yesterday, but it just wasn't enough. Calgone take me away!!!!!!
Please everyone leave me alone today.......I am so sore and in great need of serious rest after last nights accident.I will update everyone as soon as possible I swear. Love you all.
Off for a few hours then back at it again. I am due to be in work at 1600hrs til 8am and boy is the weather been super crazy. Raining all day. I love it when it get's like this. It's like the heavens open up to give the earth a bath. It washes away all of the impurities of the days before and cleanses the earth for another round. Have you ever taken the time to step out after a really wonderful rainy day has just ended and smelled the air. It smells so sweet and so squeaky clean. WoW....I miss days like this. i wish we had more of them mother earth needs many more after what we do to her everyday. Dontcha agree?
Ambulance crash $100,000.00, knee brace $100.00, guy who hit us getting a DUI priceless. I truly can't believe I survived this one to tell the tale. Drunk driver took our ambulance out T-boned us in the drivers side door and guess who was driving YeP little ol' me. WoW what a day.I am alive and have a brand new perspective on life.
Working Med 24 for 24 from 8am-16hrs. Then it's off to my first day back to school............YaY!?!?!?!?!?! Good ol' Biology 101. You would think since I work in the medical field and use medicine everyday which btw includes major Biology or the fact that I went to a health science and engineering high school; that my first three Bio's would be sufficient, but I guess not. So it's back to Biology 101...are you kidding me!?!?!?!?!? YaY for me. No really I am just excited to be back in school again. Getting back at it and making some more progress. It seems these past few moths all I have done is regress so it's nice to finally feel like I am going somewhere instead of nowhere.
Life is too short for drama & petty things, so Kiss slowly, Laugh insanely, Love truly and Forgive quickly
Working as usual Med 24 for 24hrs. from 8am-8am.
Yesterday is but a dream, tomorrow but a vision. But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness, and every tomorrow a vision of hope. Look well, therefore, to this day. Such is the salutation to the dawn.
It ceases to amaze me how far one will go to hurt another. How one will continuously lie to you and think you are truly so stupid you'll never know the difference. When you catch this same person in lie, after lie, after lie, after lie you would think they would get the hint not to lie to you because, you just so happen to be smarter than they give you credit for........
Exactly how far this person goes amazes me constantly. This person wants the world to fall in love with them and fall into their lap or handed to them on a silver platter. This person wants the world to see them as smart, funny, attractive, sexy, special, and love the fake façade that they only wished were truly them......However, if they only knew what it is they put out into the world and just how the world truly sees them. As most around you have said before (all the while I protected you and made excuses for your behavior) have said: you are most times seen as an arrogant, ugly, b*t*h, who tries too hard to impress to no avail, who cares about no one more than herself and the labels she wears on her back.....Horrible I know….but they don't have the guts to tell you these things to your face. So here it is I tell you not to hurt you, but for you to see how to change how you portray yourself to the world. Remember what you put out into the world always comes back 10 fold.
Well sweetie the world you live in; the fake one you have created for everyone (esp. your new girl to see) will all crumble eventually when the truths unveil themselves. One at a time the bricks will fall and then you will have to explain all your lies and deceitfulness. You will see how lonely it is to take solace in the labels you so lovingly hold tight. See while another falls for this fake you.....just know she falls in love with you for all the wrong reasons. You will find that you both will have a closet filled with nothing, but labels and façades however, you will find your hearts empty. Think about it if she falls in love with you it will be the fake you......why don't you let her fall in love with the real you?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?....It might be more incredible and way more rewarding than you could ever imagine.
I hope one day you will choose to allow yourself to love and truly be loved for all that you are and all that you are not; now that sounds like true love to me. So while you chase after the labels filling your closets....I'll be out finding someone who truly cares and will love me in everyway for all that I am and all that I am not.
However, on to more pressing matters, our friendship unfortunately has come to it's end. I have tried for to long to be good to you and carry the weight of friendship for two. The past I can not be angry anymore about, because I have allowed you to continuously to do this to me. I have made all the concessions I can for you and for the behavior s you have displayed. I have tried for 3 years to hold on to the you……..I held on because, I see the real you that lays within…..underneath it all….It's ashamed that you do not allow her to flourish. I have tried truly I have with my whole heart. I tried to do right by you through thick and thin.....I saw beyond what you show the world and found a small piece of you at a time, but it was you who decided that being fake was more important to you.
You have hurt me in ways I could not find words to express. I awaited the day when you would awake from your childish dreams and see that the real world lays at your feet. I waited as long as I can and I must now begin ahead without you. I am sorry that this is how you are to find out about this, but I think If I allowed myself to talk to you…..you would only attempt to reel me back in. So this is my fare well.
Well it is now that I have to walk away. As usual...and be the better person. I am once again picking my weeds so that my garden will grow. I wish you well on your journey. Good luck in life and in love. I do wish you all the happiness in the world.
Heaven gained another angel today.......
Dearest April, I know there are absolutely no words that could possibly ease your pain. Just know there are a lot of friends and family who surround you with open arms and love you so very much. There are no adequate words right now, so I'm sending you my love instead. If there is anything you ever need know that I am here anytime of day. I love you April and I send you all of that love as well as all my prayers to you in this your time of need.
Love always,
Crissy
People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.
Wow what a day 1st to get home off a 24hrs shift thinking I'm off to find out I supposedly signed up for an overtime shift……darn…..then it was back to work I go. On my way home my car tire blows….YaY!.!.!.Then had to call my friends who were already partying because, changing a tire in the dark in the middle of the inner city just doesn't sound like too much fun. Once they showed up to pick me up we headed to the local Kroger………to refill on the beer…..only to grabbed for my wallet to realize I left it at home so……. I have no ID nor a credit card…..but, thank God for that old Military ID I still have hidden in my purse along with that hidden credit card….LOL….Thank goodness. Then on to the cook out……what fun…..WoW….what a day! I didn't get home til close to 3am. Btw thank you Aubrey for bringing me home….I really appreciate it guys. Thanks. Whew…..thank goodness a day only last for 24hrs. And that's all.
Work, Work, and more guess what………..no guess WORK.
Be who you are and say how you feel because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. -Dr. Seuss
Thank you Danyi for our conversation today…….It meant a lot to me. Thank you ladies and gents for Debate night at the local watering hole……only I thought we were suppose to watch the debate not have one of our own……However, it was hella fun.
What shall it profit man, to gain the world, yet lose their soul?
Working Med 24 for 24hrs from 8am-8am.
There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about the people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
All things appear and disappear because of the concurrence of causes and conditions. Nothing ever exists entirely alone; everything is in relation to everything else."
There's a place in the back of your mind...if look then it's me that you'll find, baby we've been more than just friends for awhile it's love in denial.......God I love that song.
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
Thank you Kris for today's conversation. Thank you for reminding me I too am not alone in the world, that we are all looking for the same thing. I truly don't think we ask for to much. I think we only ask for what we need. A good woman isn't too much to ask for at least I don't think so.
Off today trying so hard to recover from one hell of a ruff shift. Will someone tell me why is it that overweight and I do mean much more overweight people than myself with failing health always code in a single wide tailor, all the way in the back, down a narrow hallway, in a room filled with junk, & on a bed? We did a great job almost a save, but we almost lost me in the process.....thanks guys.....lol.....I'm only kidding well not really....We got the poor pt on the back board and onto the floor. Due to years in the biz knowing we only have a few moments and very few hands in which to help we smartened up and placed the person on a back board did 2 min CPR then drugged the board down the hallway stopped in the kitchen did 1 more min of CPR then to the living room 2 more min of CPR while the fire guys came up with the game plan to get this pt down the stairs in the pouring rain and down the slippery small azz porch only meant for one n' onto the stretcher. Once the plan was devised it was almost executed well except I some how ended up half through the porch stairs and down the flight of steps on my back head first.....at least I didn't reach out and grab at them or else it would have ended much worse. I had half a mind while falling to shove the board, pt loaded mind you onto the railing as to not have them left holding the weight. I did it all with grace. I got up dusted myself off and went back into action. The rest went beautifully however, we lost our pt at the hospital unfortunately. I am so sorry we couldn't have done more however, we did do a great job under the circumstances. I must say boy am I hurting today, I feel it for sure. Advil or Motrin anyone?
Another long long shift Med 24 for 24hrs 8am-8am. Advil or Motrin anyone? Boy am I not feeling very well today I think I might have mono once again like I did in high school it feels about the same........ewwww.....WoW what a RuFf shift!?!?!?!?!?!?!
coming soon Party details
A nice quiet day. Napped most of the day then moved onto a wonderful dinner and a movie.
Btw it was wonderful bumping into my dear old friend from high school Jenny. She might even be thinking of moving in with me......YaY! She doesn't know how much of a lifesaver that just might be for me thank goodness.
Also Nights in Rodanthe is phenomenal, but a tear jerker so make sure you come prepared.
Another long long shift Med 24 for 24hrs 8am-8am
Work work work n' more work. Med 24 from 8am til 4pm then home to chill for a few then back to work I go to work med 22 til 8am then off to my reg. shift. I hate being an adult what happened to the good ol' days of just being a kid n' enjoying just living and being.
October 3, 2008
I don't want to waste one single day..........time is far too precious.
.........WoW I am truly sick.....I can't think of anything more than my bed. Nothing and I mean nothing sounds better than a hot shower then crawling in my bed for some ZzZzZzZz's. I hate being sick. It seems I ave been sick a lot this year. My immune system hasn't been the same since the CA. YuCkKiEs! However, I did pry myself out of bed for a few hours to see Nita, Aubrey and Jenn at First Friday in downtown Augusta. It was nice dinner in the hippest eatery in town (the PiZzA jOiNt) then a walk downtown enjoying the view.....
BTW Blondie with the blue shirt with white lettering on it. you know the one with the plaid hat. Yes you sexy.....yes you with the sexy hot butt....We saw you at the pizza joint we made eye contact.....damn girl you are haaawwwwttt call me.!.!.! I am kidding I mean no really I'm not would love to get to know you......you seem like such a sweet girl.....lol. Ok can't blame a girl for trying damn. I know I'm not her type anyhow, but it was a thought.
October 2, 2008
Working Med 24 for 24hrs 8am-8am.
You know the world in going down hill for a long time, but wheres the proof you ask, well here is it is.
To do is to be-Socrates
To be is to do-Sartre
Do be do be do-Sinatra
Yabba Dabba do-Flinstone
Dah doo doo doo-Sting
October 1, 2008
Today was an extremely hard day in which to process. My heart is heavy once again. Today I learned yet again how to let go. As this is something I have had to do a lot of over these past nine months. Letting go is becoming increasingly familiar to me. You would think that letting go would come easy by now, but unfortunately it is becoming much harder with each passing day. Letting go is the right thing to do; this I do know, however it doesn't make it any less painful.
I know my proverbial "her" is out there. I have faith and stock in that fact....However, who is she? what is she about? what moral fabric was she made from? what are her ideals? what are her wants? what does she like or even dislike? what does she look like? what does she do? what does her laugh sound like? do her eyes sparkle when she smiles? does she like kids? where is she? do I already know her? or is she someone still yet to avail herself? will I know right away when I meet her, that she is my "forever" girl and her I?
It is of no matter all the above the point I am trying to make is that I am eager to begin my life with her. I am tired of wasting time. With each passing day it is one more day not spent with her. One less day at her side loving her with all that I have. Make no mistake being single is fun, (okay fun for most, but it's not for me.
)I was made for relationships. I very much enjoy being in a relationship and all the things that come along with it. I have never seen loving someone as a ball n' chain. I think the small things and not so pleasantries of life to be the very thing that makes life so very wonderful. I love coming home to "her" I love walking through the grocery store playing like children laughing uncontrollably, I love it when she reaches back for my hand and just how they fit together, I love paying the bills together, I love the wifely house duties, I love long walks on the beach, nights in the field under the stars, spontaneous trips to no where just bc, wild nights at the club, and quiet ones at home with a movie, I would even love it if she would read to me. There are so many things that I love about being in a relationship, that there are almost too many to name here. But the point is........yes I could do these things alone or with friends, but I would rather share them with "her." Who she is I don't know, however one day she will stand before me and all things will be right in the world. I am trying to await that day as patiently as one can. I feel it is just around the next bend, but sometimes it is hard to see the forest through the trees. I am in need of strength to keep on keeping on. As I grow older I become more disillusioned and more disheartened. It is becoming harder and harder to keep the faith........I have weathered my storms I know I have earned my rainbow. Now I must await it patiently.
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