UPDATES August 2008:Keep watching my updates as they will change frequently. Also please check out all my blogs as they too will change frequently. If there is a blog with your name on it which I promise there is in deed one check it often as I will be writing a letter to EVERYONE I know an individual letter. I will be updating those letters as often as I allow myself to express things that need to be said or shared. I will be posting it here as a way to heal. I will not be sending them to you. For those who actually care about me and my thoughts they will read it while others who could careless wont and well I need to say some things to let them go. I am in deed on a journey of healing. This process is part of my twelve steps to beginning to take back all that I have either given away, things that have been taken, or have been lost along the way. August 27, 2008
The possibilities ahead are amazing and I am so excited to see what life has in store for me. I am growing stronger with each passing day despite all the bumps along the way. If all the loves I have had the ability to feel throughout my lifetime was wrong and they felt so right; I can't even phantom the love that is in store for me. Bc if they were so wrong the right one is really gonna blow me away. So where is the proverbial "she" is she someone new I have never met, maybe someone that I just met, or is she someone I have known all along the way. I don't know I guess lets see which way the wind blows, bc I know she is closer now I can feel her. I am so excited to have a very wonderful woman back in my life. Her friendship means the world to me......Kris never leave me again, boy how I have missed you.August 26, 2008
Walking away from her hurt and was truly one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life, but it had to be done. She didn't love me anymore, at least not like that of a lover or as a partner. I will always lover her and she will always have a special place in my heart; however, she will never have my heart again.For the first time in 8 months I sat across from her at dinner and I told her how I truly felt deep in my heart. However, my words didn't come from anger or pain. I love her, but sitting there I saw all that I lost, but all that I lost was someone who is lost in the world.August 26, 2008
"Don't see to believe, believe to see.."August 25, 2008
"The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step"August 24, 2008
Life I too hard at times. How can you begin to love again when your heart still hasn't mended.Augusta 23, 2008
I think I need to go on hiatus to begin to heal.
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